I want to be normal, again, and be enlightened.

Things have been bugging me recently.

I am confused.

Very very much confused.

I hate to say this.

But i have been subconsiously allowing this to affect my life.

School's sounds like a bitch to me now.

The idea of going there to smile is horrid.

I hate this.

Was talking to Justin the other day.

He was talking about having a brainwash.

I was a little unconcerned about this thought initially.

Besides, he's just plain crazy.

All his ideas are weird.

Until i came to realise

why he said.

Life..

Brings us thr many sufferings.

Whoever created us made us go thr and experience life.

The cruel way.

When you start realising truths about life,

its almost impossible to leave the facts alone.

Yes, we all grow from experience.

Thats undeniable.

But pain, heartbreaks and all the upsetting stuffs that reflects hurt,

they are all inevitable.

Tell me.

Why does all these happen,

When we only get to live once?

This feeling, i cant do anything about it.

We are all different in terms of behavior, character and looks.

But i guess,
deep down inside,

each and everyone of us are just plain hollow shells,

carrying out our everyday's duties.

Why?

If i have a choice to make and cause a great impact to my life,

I will rather forget everything,

everyone and start life again.

At least in this way,

there will be no grudges held,

no hate,

no bad memories,

clean and uncontaminated mind.

I wanna start afresh.

But still, then,

how many times do we get to change and start anew in life?

That boy, he always makes me see things in another perspective.

He's been enlightening me and my thoughts,

really thanks to him,

that i am still surviving.

Hey Justin,

If you ever come along and sees this,

i just want you to know you've been a great help,

and i really appreciate it truckloads.

Okay i know you all wanna see how he looks like.

So here goes.

Okay i know this is as good as posting nothing but he dont like taking photos.

Lol.

Okay.

I'm off to have a good think about my stuffs tonight.

Nights people.