How can i ever bid farewell.

2008 is coming to an end!

So fast.
I'm ahem, in fact not too looking forward to 2009.
I dunno why, probably cos i like the way life is, now.

Anyway, i've decided on my top 3 resolutions for year 2009 despite everyone have been telling
me that i cant do it. While we all investigate how much we had grown in the passing year, down to the fresh New Year Resolutions that spells to build up possibilities on who we can be, what we can do, and what we should do. The set of ambitions we had promised to bring realism to.

1. Kick that money burning habit of mine.


(-i know you all are laughing,

but i dont care.)


2. Be more feminine and to stop behaving...

like a boy.

3. Lose 5 kgs.

(-i seriously think this is highly impossible.

I'm preparing to gain weight,

after my bangkok trip.)

Haha.
Proud of me right?
i actually still have a few more wishes but i think i'm not gonna priortize them.

- start saving more money.
- be more of a cool cucumber when it comes to settling things.
- be happier. ((: (well this is important)
- find a job at the bookstore and do something i really like.
- let my nails grow long and stop them from breaking so that i can paint them red.
- go bali with don before 2009 ends (i doubt this is possible so i'm plain dreaming)

Urghhh.
i better stop forming impossible dreams before i get frustrated when they are all wrecked.
)):



Anyway year 2008 had been a real fulfilling year for me because i gained more things than losing.

I tried something new after i left Haagen Dazs, and i mastered how to talk properly to strangers, and i've also learnt some marketing tips.I realised that it was also year 2008 that i became more of a label whore. I started taking notice of labels more than i ever did. And that, i know is the biggest change my friends disapprove of.



I went to Ben&Jerry's as a scooper and i had great fun there. Ben&Jerry's obviously dont pay me as well as haagen did, but it was a really fun job. I see myself looking forward to weekends cos i'll be happily scooping ice-cream and having fun with my colleagues.



When i enrolled to school at ite bishan, i was upright upset because i've never placed ite as one of my college choices. I hated school for a start cos orientation made me realise that i prolly can't click with anyone from my school. But now. its so obvious that i love my classmates more than anything!
You girls seriously ROCK. (: <3>

I celebrated my eighteenth and i started my havoc lifestyle (Don, i know you are prolly grinning and mumbling things) I started clubbing and drinking alot with my party animals. I see nothing nothing wrong in it. I like the way it is but i'm probably gonna tone down a little soon. Me, together with my group of trusting friends, we exploited the advantages and benefits clubs offered. Free entries and drinks that got us a little tipsy, thr that, i've learnt about self-worth after seeing men of all kinds. I was enlightened that beneath their gorgeous looks, each and every one of them aint so simple. I've learnt.


I've experienced the worst heartbreak that nearly torn me apart in this fateful year too. It managed to cut me deep within, and it offered me the feeling that i would acknowledge as pain and it lingered inside me for a period of time, which seemed like the longest time ever. I realised that forgiveness comes with time, which in turn came from the undeniable truth that we all knew. I was in a confused state of mind as i picked up those shattered hopes and fragments of love and carried them carefully in my arms. It was only a simple question, which expected me to answer and choose between a yes or a no. Yet, it took me great pains to ponder and discover the end product. Those "maybe" assumptions which might leave me in a state of despairing desires keep running their way into my mind, no matter how much i tried to stop them from coming. I thought i could never overcome the trepidation of taking this chance after the countless letdowns. I've learnt to forgive. And i came to realise that forgiving is so much easier than to hate. It's so much less exhausting to walk away than to bear grudges. Till now, i hope i haven't made the wrong choice, that is, to believe in you and what the promising future might brings me.



It was in year 2008 that i realised that good friends are hard to come by. I've always knew that i will be in good hands when i am with those bunch of goodies. They are, certainly, god-sent to me by a bundle. They are also the ones who stretched and lent me a helping hand when i sunk into despair in my toughest period. On top of that, i've also become acquainted to the people i thought i'll never had. All these memories, will be locked in that part of my heart as a guiding experience always. Despite that, i've also understood the fact that people come and go in the process of growing up. And now, i've made a close bond between these people who once potrayed themselves as strangers to me, who became my friends.



There was also this guy who hopped into my life years back, as a man who was immature and insensitive. He made the greatest impact and formed the changes in me in 2008. Tan Keng Kiat, has now becomed the person whom i will always run to for advices. He is such a sweetheart now. (:

Year 2008, to put it in a word, i will find myself to say, adventourous.






And hello 2009. :D

I'm looking forward to you and anticipating what will the new year bring me.
I'm excited to embark on my new learning journey. (:
Goodbye, for now.