Ronnie: November 2008

Insanity & a bunch of bitches who've got nothing to do.

So local.

So irritating.
So KPO.

You.

You all know im talking about you people.

Why interfere into my relationship problems?

Fuck you (all),
stop poking your bloody nose into my affairs.

I dont know you and you have got nothing to with me.

Dont bother racking your miserably small and useless brains,

thinking so much wont get you all anywhere, anyway.

Dont go around asking people why i stand so close to my buddies when we take pics.

Dont ask why i have so many guyfriends.

I dont need your dirty little mouths to remind me i have a bunch of buddies with me.

You bunch of empty vessels.

Alas,

the only thing thats making me happy the whole week.

Sat! I wanna see how girlfriend cries on Sat!

Haha,

CHUA RUI YING!

You better cry cos i spent alot of my time and effort on your present can.

HAHAHA.

Okay,
Ciao. (:

Here's a tribute to LISHAN!

I smell TomYum how about you?

Its comfirmed.
Its comfirmed.

I cant wait.
Bangkok Bangkok wait for me!

I'll be going with my two darlings (Cat & Angel), Ben, Zaph & maybe Daryl.
Hahahaha.
Hopefully by then the riots there will be over,
or at the least, slight better.

I wanna shop till i drop!

Pocket full of... flirty bitches.

(:

YES YES YES!
My BKK trip with Cat & Angel is more or less comfirmed.
Haha.
TomYum, Retail therapy, wait for us!
<3333

Walau ):
Ying's birthday more or less drained me empty le.
I'm broke & brokened already.

Eighteen.

My darling Ying is finally 18!!

(:

happy birthday girlfriend!

love you to bits.

I LOVE YOU TOO ANGELINE! (i saw it on your blog)

And CAT! YOU ARE LOVED TOO!

*mwahmwahmwah!

You wanna be a fucker then i'll show you what's a whore.

Justin Wong :D
He's my new BF-F for now.

Okay,
I managed to snap him yesterday when we went out!
Hohoho.
Bye (:

Fund me PLEASE!

I need fundings people.

I am going super broke and i very badly want to go on a shopping trip to BKK in Feb with Cat & Angeline.

Anyone wants to fund me? ):

Anyway,
This week's gonna be a busy one.

Mon = Get Ying's present.
Tues = Prepare Ying's surprise (her birthday)
Wed = Resting.
Thurs = Teach my friend communications
Fri = Work
Sat = Work + drinking at QB for Ying's birthday
Sun = Going out.

Arghh.
I need to save money already!

Killer's instinct.

Exams.
Project
& life are killing me.

Haha.
At least i'm learning how to take things openly now.

After losing two kgs,
I gained weight again.
I think its time for me to set some time aside and start jogging again.
):

I'm going bonkers,

This is sucha pain.
Work sucks.
School's sucky,
and life's even suckier.

Urghhh.
Looks like its really time for me to munch on a timeout.

Arghhhh fuck those nonsense.

Boo. This sucks.

Life is such a whore.
And i skipped school again, like what i've done for like millions times.

Urghhhh just screw it.

Urghhh life.

Tell me what does life expect.

I want to be normal, again, and be enlightened.

Things have been bugging me recently.

I am confused.

Very very much confused.

I hate to say this.

But i have been subconsiously allowing this to affect my life.

School's sounds like a bitch to me now.

The idea of going there to smile is horrid.

I hate this.

Was talking to Justin the other day.

He was talking about having a brainwash.

I was a little unconcerned about this thought initially.

Besides, he's just plain crazy.

All his ideas are weird.

Until i came to realise

why he said.

Life..

Brings us thr many sufferings.

Whoever created us made us go thr and experience life.

The cruel way.

When you start realising truths about life,

its almost impossible to leave the facts alone.

Yes, we all grow from experience.

Thats undeniable.

But pain, heartbreaks and all the upsetting stuffs that reflects hurt,

they are all inevitable.

Tell me.

Why does all these happen,

When we only get to live once?

This feeling, i cant do anything about it.

We are all different in terms of behavior, character and looks.

But i guess,
deep down inside,

each and everyone of us are just plain hollow shells,

carrying out our everyday's duties.

Why?

If i have a choice to make and cause a great impact to my life,

I will rather forget everything,

everyone and start life again.

At least in this way,

there will be no grudges held,

no hate,

no bad memories,

clean and uncontaminated mind.

I wanna start afresh.

But still, then,

how many times do we get to change and start anew in life?

That boy, he always makes me see things in another perspective.

He's been enlightening me and my thoughts,

really thanks to him,

that i am still surviving.

Hey Justin,

If you ever come along and sees this,

i just want you to know you've been a great help,

and i really appreciate it truckloads.

Okay i know you all wanna see how he looks like.

So here goes.

Okay i know this is as good as posting nothing but he dont like taking photos.

Lol.

Okay.

I'm off to have a good think about my stuffs tonight.

Nights people.

Overwhelmed by ridicule.

I cant even be happy.
I cant even blog anything out.
Am i supposed to LOOK emo like you after the break-up?

You are damn ridiculous you make me hate you.
You are damn impatient i feel so irritated.

Whatever.
Its either i close this place down,
or start locking up my blog.
Or maybe even better,
type everything out.

screw those ridiculousness.

I am in love! (:

Okay.

I am still in LOVE.

With my all-time fav JESSE MCCARNTEY~!!!!

HEH~!

My name is officially Sharon McCartney!

Yea, Rin said that.

Extreme uncertainty and insanity.

So tired luhh.

Projects are ~~almost~~ killing me.

So many class tests.

So many projects.

):

Inevitable but still very unbearable.

I've come round to lots of things lately.

I dont wanna be the compromising young lady anymore.

It feels super dumb.

Its always better to take things easy,

i realised.

Hohohoho.

I'm going shopping with KK this Sunday!

Need to buy Ying Love's birthday present luh.

Ying! Are you excited to know what we're buying?

Haha.

And Tan Keng Kiat!

If you happen to see this,

my arm is swollen from that lethal bite that damn dog bit!

Now i wonder why you keep such a crazy dog in your car.

ROAR!

P/S: Next time that dog bite me again i'll smash his car.

HOHOHO.

(:

So hot i dont mind dying for.

Afraid i'll get pricked, i'm still learning.

I am a happy girl now.
Super good news!
I completed my NAPFA Test!
Hahaha!
Ima 12 min runner luh!
Oh did i mentioned i topped my course also?
*double yayness.

Justin Wong PS-ed me yesterday!
I'm going to kill you. ROAR!
Haha.

Went out with Zelin, Anthony and his classmates to Bugis.
They needed Prom stuffs so i went there to help them bargain.
Haha.
Saw girlfriend there too.
I miss her hell lots )):
Ima certified shopping queen hahahaha.

Anyway,
i met up with buddy kk and we went to Bishan to catch prawns.
Fresh prawns tastes damn good can.
I ate to my ~~heart~~ stomach's content.

I'm seeing Daryl and Justin tomorrow! (:
Such a shame Ying cant come. ):

THIS IS WHAT I CALL HOT.

I've learnt to let go of many things.
Sometimes it might do some good to keep abit of heckcare attitude in my blood.

I know you all are watching,
i know some are worried,
some probably gloating at my loss.

But..
I am Sharon,.
I will be strong and will be able to get over it.

Perharps,
real soon..

I ~~dont~~ want to think about all these no more..
but i cant help it..

Tell me, now,
what should i do...

Stop asking me if i am okay.
If i am feeling better.
Cos I'm not.

18 plus months in a relationship.
All the time and effort put in..
All gone.
Perhaps dissipated with the blow of the sigh.

19 months,
76 weeks,
532 days,
12768 hours,
766080 minutes.
All gone with that word from his mouth.
All out of impulse,
he said.

Should i be happy to regain my freedom?
Maybe i should.
Happy that i can go
drinking.
partying,
clubbing.
And meet up with my friends and i wouldnt have to worry about anything.
I dont have to care about his feelings and no worries about jealousy.

On the other hand,
i am very down.
I feel very empty.
I've lost someone i really love.
I am very very depressed.
I..
I just dunno what to do..

I know ultimately i will get over this but..
Its just too hard.

Thanks alot,
Justin and my Ying girlfriend.
Thanks for the accompaniment.
and of course,
new mole friend and buddy. (:

Out of all the unlucky and upsetting things that brought me down,
finally something good came.
I am invited to a school tea reception.
Because the school decides to give me recognition for excellence in academic performance.

Life have been too tormentous for me for the past 24 hours.
I ~~think~~ i feel like dying.

Some strangers invaded into my privacy in the past 20 hours.
It feels awkward to have another 3 others staying with me.
My regular habits, all feels so inappropriate in the house.
I wanna move out, ~~period~~.

I have been feeling kinda screwed these days.
Emptyness came.
and went away.
and came back again.
I abhor, i hate.

I think i need urgent help.
I am helpless and i seem to ~~hate~~,
everything arrangement, movements and everyone around me.

Help, i need to scream.
I need you, love.

I hate people who dont honour their words.

I know it sounds crazy to blog 3 times a day.
But!!!

Just as i was feeling very ~~happy~~ to spread the love around..

I came across an idiot who DONT honour his promise.
Saw wanna accompany me go buy clothes yet lie to me.
Say after dinner wanna accompany me go,
yet settled at the stupid computer and do work.

SO ANGRY LA!

Arghhhhh. just f it.
Bye.
& i am not coming back, period.

You light it up and let it became colourful.

Two months ago till the most recent outing. (:

This man is super good laaaa.

He "toh peng" and wrote chinese calligraphy.

Ying love bought this from him anyway.

At QB Cool Bar.

Hahaha.

Because i am Ronnie. <3>

I look taller when i wear maxis! (:
Heh, and yea, i'm happy :D

I apparently look fairer than real life. :/

In Kk's car. :D

Ying Love.

& that girl.

Depatures are inevitable.

Hola!
I'm so sad now luh.
Cos Auntie Dewi going back Indonesia next Friday already!
Nobody cook nice nice food for us already.
So sad.
Nevermind.
I'll just ask baby to learn her signature dishes before she goes back and cook give me eat!
WAHAHAHA!

Anyway,
This Sat might not be able to go Malaysia le luh!
Ying say her ah bu wont let her go ):
Sigh.
Maybe not going Yong Peng le.
Just go JB with kk to shop shop eat eat spend spend ba.
Heh.

Buddies!!
Meet up soon!
*misses you all truckloads luh ):

I think i've sorted it all out.
All that matters now is not how many friends i have or what I own,
in life.
I dont care how glamorous your life is,
cos if you have no friends or whatsoever,
you are nothing.
I've got awesome, fabulous, wonderful buddies and the most interesting boyfriend around me and its all that i need.

Thankyou, RuiYing.

For being the one who stands by me whenever i need someone.
For being the only friend who shares the exact same character,
at least when it comes to knowing new girlfriends.
I love you, my girlfriend.

Thankyou, Keng Kiat.

For being the one who lends me a shoulder to lean on when i needed one.
For being so very trusting when i need to talk.
& of course, keeping this friendship bonded strongly even when we didnt keep in contact.
I love you, my very best buddy.

& the one in my life.
Baby,

Thanks for always being there for me,
for helping me with a lending hand everytime i fall,
(be it literally or not, ha)
for being yourself, only visible to me,
and of course, for loving me.
And i love you too.

Ahhhh.
suddenly I feel so lovely.
And it definately feels good to love and to be loved.
Pass the love people! (: